The break up day

I gave up the extreme feeling  have for some one, to get a bit of sadness, slightly appear. But I take in the whole world of sense afterward. 

The 1st night, I found out there are many other relationship, and they are never been "feel". I give out all my feeling for someone who cant not sense all of it, while other people didnt have the chance to get to my heart.

 

I understand now why she was so glad when she know im in love

So that night I openly talk to friends, really care about them, really pay my attention toward their feeling. I stop feeling annoy and empty when people buzz me. I would stop the movie just to talk to them. I care about relationship for the first time.

Well, you know how I only love and trust my family and her. Its was negative. I have a whole bunch of people to open my heart to now. Not the whole world,as I also realize in another event, but never mind. So, I can stay way from twitter and other kind of method to keep the feeling for my self, instead, I would try to share it with one who can understand, if possible. So I spend lots of time on facebook, share my findings, my thoughts. Thus I can keep people who I rarely make connection, keep their connection with me.

The 2nd day, I woke up feeling so refresh, and from then on, I feel the CURRENT happiness. All my unspeakable concern now become speakable. All the words without meaning having its meaning now. And I would search them all. 

I will help people if I want to, share what im thinking, glad to be welcome, and catch the chance to to new things. 

The 3rd day I spent watching Disney movie, listen to music and write. i realize who I am, how I sense thing. Im the extreme type. I am happy to find the extreme part of happiness and fun and feeling and love. Those are difficult to catch, also difficult to sustain. But beautiful. Some people are more subtle, but also sensitive, they would like to search for lower rhythm, one that remaining.

So by the 4th day, I have nothing elso to do, except to come back with my study. Happy to find study interesting again.